Sex Change

Waking up a female would be a funny surprise to me.  I would wake up with long hair, breasts, and other things us men normally don't start our day with.  I think I might yell as soon as I wake up because I might not feel how a guy feels when we wake up.   I'd probably pull my hair as hard as I can to see if I can feel pain and check if its attached to my head like a normal female.  I'd probably look around and wonder why my room looks so "mannish". 

I'd do the typical guy routine when getting up.  Way one of doing it:  get up, scratch your butt, fix the wedge, smell your own bad breath for entertainment, brush only, lightly clean your face without soap, put on used clothes from up to a week ago, lie on the couch and watch TV or play video games.  Way two:  lie in the bed for another hour while checking facebook, snapchat, instagram, tinder, kik, and text messages, reply to the female messages IMMEDIATELY, ignore our buddies for another 3 hours, force ourselves to brush our teeth and clean up, no shower, stay in our boxers or wear shorts only, go watch TV and be lazy.  Way three:  stay in bed and play video games for the rest of the day or until forced to get up. 

I think I'd use my female advantages to gain more knowledge on females so when I return to man, I will have them 100% figured out.  As of right now, I currently live with my family so I think they would understand my midnight transformation.  My mom would probably love it the most because she won't be the only female in the house.  I would go to the mall and suggest all the fine girls to the male Dante so when I change back, my phone would be blowing up.  Perfect idea. 

But if this ever did happen, I wouldn't be too surprised.  Sex change is now celebrated in society...(...cough...cough....Caitlyn Jenner.....)  Hopefully the transformation back would be predetermined so that I can record it and put it up on Youtube.  I'd probably be a hit after that.  Bad thing is that I'd have to buy female clothes to avoid looking too much like a tomboy.   

College Changes

College is not an area to waste time in.  I pay out of pocket with costs that don't make sense.  College determines the outcome of my future and I go to achieve that paper work that every employer seeks.  In this day and age, a college education is required even for minimum wage job.  Entry level jobs can only be acquired with college experience as technology is a huge part of every job.  College thoroughly teaches me how to use computers which is now mandatory at every job.  College also requires time and habit changes to adapt to the work, especially if you have a job too.

Back in the spring semester,  I had to make a major change in my time management routine.  I took 5 classes during that semester.  History, English, Psychology, Anatomy & Physiology Lab and A&P Lectures.  Mon and Wed, I had class from 12:30 pm to 3:00 pm.  Tues and Thurs, I had class from 8 am to 2 pm.  What made the semester challenging was taking Anatomy and Physiology, the class was Tues and Thurs from 8 am to noon and my job.  I usually worked at 5 pm or 6 pm.  If I was unlucky, I worked at 4 pm.

Anatomy and Physiology was the class that made the semester a real challenge.  One, we had a test every week.  Two, you have to study VERY hard in it.  Three, there are questions that will make your head spin.  Four, with how technical the tests are, failing is NOT an option.  I had to find ways to study not only A&P, but the other subjects like History, that required thorough studying.  My schedule was so busy, especially with work, that I only had time to study two of the five courses.  I made sure I studied A&P everyday.  Terms such as Acetylcholine, Scaphoid, and Triquetrum are words you don't hear everyday and would want to remember for future references. 

All the hard work and schedule changes paid off.  I cut out gym time to one or two days a week to make more time for studies.  I studied as soon as I got home.  Sometimes, I brought my A&P book to work to study during slow shifts.  I never left A&P early like the other students and stayed the full time to study and ask questions.  No room for errors as I took it at G.M.C. College as a transient student, costing me $800 out of pocket.  Failure of that course meant throwing $800 away.

Though the changes were rough and tedious, it all paid off in the end.  I finished with an "A" in A&P, an "A" in Psychology, a "B" in History, and a "B" in English.  I could have gotten all A's but A&P and work really took up most of my time.  I was VERY happy with my final grade in Anatomy as it is my FAVORITE subject.  That is why Occupational Therapy Assisting is my major.  Honestly, I enjoyed the hectic schedule because it taught me how to manage my time and studies properly.  With papers due here, tests coming, quizzes next week, and projects due soon;  I learned how to better utilize my time.  I miss that semester. 

Love Poems

I enjoy the fact that we are starting to talk about things concerning love and feelings.  Love is a very important part of our lives.  It teaches us how to appreciate others and our soul mate.  Love is not always a physical feeling towards another person as it can be written or sang in songs or poems.  Poems and writings are a huge way that people can express it.  Love can also be a very twisted term.  Incest, infidelity, rape, and molestation can be seen as a love feeling by the aggressor.  In the normal person's eyes, those are seen as wrong.  Love is still undetermined to this day as it is something we cannot feel or see, everyone has different opinions on love and it can disappear and reappear in an instance. 

I used to always express my feelings of love through poetry.  I only wrote my pieces if I felt something deep enough.  Here is a sample of an old poem I have written. 

EVEN MORE

I want to know you even more.
More than your beauty and smile.

You encase yourself in a shell.
Not wanting to open the door.

You smile, then walk away.
With nothing more to tell.

I sit and watch you walk.
You move with grace.

Your hair flutters in the air.
How I wish to see your face.

I see you every now and then.
I want to see you often.

Everyday and every second.
But, I know that will never be an option.

So, I enjoy every chance I get.
Even if I only say one word.

And even if you say nothing.
Those are moments I never forget.

"What do you hold in?"
Maybe the world is not ready.

You are the angel who finally chose to descend.
With me lucky enough to be your friend.

I chase after you, silently.
Maybe I am crazy.

I hold my feelings in as time goes by.
Fearing you would reject me.

With fear of it being too late.
But, as long as you are happy.

I hope to find you someday.
"Could it be?"

I want it to be true.
And I hope you feel the same way.

Brotherly Pain

Growing up with a brother, you will most likely experience everything together.  Everything from sad times, happy times, hard times, and painful experiences.  Brothers will have each other when the pain is the worst.  Trauma is part of life and it helps us grow and human beings.  Without pain, we will not know how to mature and grow.

My brother and I are dog lovers.  We love every kind of dog that exists.  They are very playful, love to run around, and can be just as respectful as a well raised human being.  When my brother and I were kids, we had our first dog.  His name was Hodgey.  We got that name from a childhood cartoon.  As our 1st dog, we loved him like a brother.  Due to us being little kids, we loved anything  playful and Hodgey with his crazy and wild actions got along with us perfect.  He was so wild that he would scratch us for no reason until we bled.  We still loved him. 

Unfortunately, our parents saw him as too wild, so we had to give him up.  Me and my brother still remember that day like it was yesterday.  We were upstairs looking out the window as we saw our 1st dog leaving in a stranger car.  Of course, we cried like kids. 

Fortunately, having a dog taught us how to care for them.  Being a dog owner at such a young age also developed a sensitive side in me and my brother.  To this day, I still love dogs and all animals.  They can be playful and are adorable.  Someday, I hope to have another dog. 

Eight Year Tragedy

A tragedy is often looked at as a once in a lifetime incident that has effects traumatizing to the victim or victims.  Tragedies are scarring and can have a life lasting effect.  When the word "tragedy" is said, incidents like 9/11, The Oklahoma City Bombing, and Pearl Harbor come to mind.  Those events were devastating  and traumatizing even to people who didn't physically or mentally suffer from them.  I was only 11 years old when 9/11 happened but the visions still sit in my head to this day.

I almost lost my life at 6 months old.  I experienced a fever accumulating up to 105 Fahrenheit.  At such a young age, a baby's part of the brain responsible for controlling temperature, the Hypothalamus, is not completely developed.  That is why fevers and very high temperatures are much more deadly to babies as opposed to older people.  I was rushed to the hospital, my fever got so high that oxygen was cut off to the left part of my brain.  That part of the brain died and scarring formed. 

At age nine, I experienced a very weird and unnatural feeling while playing video games.  I sort of lost consciousness and started feeling tingly.  At first, I thought it was just something like fatigue, but I experienced it again days later.  I eventually went to the doctor and was diagnosed with epilepsy.  I remember crying without control.  Surgery was the ultimate cure but the doctors and my family wanted to avoid it. 

From age 13 to 16,  my life came to a major halt.  Due to strenuous activity causing the seizures, I couldn't play sports or do any physical activity.  But me being a stubborn teenager, I did those anyway.  There were countless times where I would do exercises and pass out in front of everyone.  The waking up part was the worst.  Everyone standing around you and staring, I even had people laugh or imitate me.  Those were traumatizing.  But that's high school for you. 

Many times, I had to leave class early or wake up with spectators.  It affected me away from school too.  My mom used to always cry when she saw me pass out.  I remember one experience when I had a really bad seizure and was rushed to the ER.  My mom was by my side crying helplessly. 

I finally had surgery at age 16, three weeks before my 17th birthday.  Even though my seizures are gone,  those experiences are still traumatizing.  I can't even look at a video of a person having a seizure without feeling guilty.  It would just remind me of myself.  I am VERY VERY blessed that my condition is gone. 

Superwoman

The female race is often forgotten as heroes.  Every time one thinks of a "hero", a male figure comes to their mind.  Wonderwoman is the only female hero that would come to ones mind if asked their opinion about female super heroes.  Due to the male race being naturally physically stronger and more built than females, females have a tendency to be thought of as non super heroes.  Heroes are thought to have super strength and speed.  Males fit that criteria more than women.

In my opinion, women are the biggest heroes of all.  Women give birth to us "men" and females.  They are like the 2nd coming of God.  God created men and women.  Women can create a man or a woman.  If it weren't for my mom or the mom's of anyone who is reading or has read this post, we would not be here today.  Woman also save lives.  When a child is born, the mother nurtures him/her.  Without the mom's care, the child may not grow up healthy and loved.  Us "men" cannot reproduce.  Without the existence of women, me and the other "men" would slowly eradicate off Earth.  We as a human race should continue to uplift women and give them the attention that they need, as there once was and always will be that one woman or women who will continue to give us that same care. 

Homerun

A hero doesn't necessary have to be person that saves lives.  When the general population thinks of hero, they think of Superman or Spider man.  Those are beings with powers beyond normal human capabilities.  Though they are the perfect examples of a hero, they are not the best definition of a hero.  A hero can be someone who touches another human being spiritually and mentally. 

Homer is a good example of the other type of hero.  He was a blind writer who's writing made an impact throughout time.  Homer is considered a hero to many current day philosophers.  His writings "The Odyssey" and "The Iliad" continue to make an impact on literature.  Other writers such as Langston Hughes and J.K. Rowling are considered heroes due to their cultural and fictional writings.    

Hero

My long time hero is my dad.  If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't be here right now.  Many children grow up without parents.  Some grow up without a dad, some without a mom.  Sadly, some grow up without either parent.  Life is so much more visible with family.  The father is the voice of the house and a child's life can be more focused with a male figure in the house.

My other heroes are my brother and mother.  My brother always helped me in sports when it came to competition.  My mother always understood my problems and saw the good instead of the bad.  I am a gentleman because of her sweet nature.  I wish I wasn't so cold hearted, but I guess I am that way.  All three of them are the only people I need and would not replace them for anyone or anything.

Son Child

The universe is created through the sun and a man and woman create a god child.  He is not exactly the child to a god or gods but his soul creates life.  We had a debate on whether heaven and hell existed.  We decided that there is no heaven and hell.  If we used that then it is just another creation of the life that already exists.  We are looking for originality.

We still have some holes to fill as in our story, some parts are still unanswered.  But we are very confident that our story will be convincing.  The names of the parents and their child is still unknown at this point.  We are very confident that our presentation will be impressive. 

Co-Worker Eroticism

Everyone has that naughty side where they want to sleep with co-workers.  The thought of skipping work and making love in the workplace is hot in many people's minds.  Wondering if you will get caught, how long can each other last and finding a good spot to make love all add thrill to the it.  Work causes stress and having attractive coworkers causes the intent to want the passion.  Hot coworkers + stress = desire to release. 

Some companies allow coworkers to date as there are no rules against work relationships.  Other companies have strict policies against coworker intimacy.  But being around attractive coworkers causes people to give in to the rules.  Attraction over rules is an understatement.  The thrill of not getting caught and sneaking around is always fun.  Love making is always a good stress reliever and when you have an attractive co-worker, many will break the rules.

Eroticism

At first thought, I saw eroticism as only something of physical sexual nature like a couple having sex or a one night stand.  But after thorough discussions in class, I was wrong.  I've seen so many commercials and heard so many jokes and have never thought of them as eroticism.  At those times, I saw eroticism as only sexually pleasurable acts.  Many humorous shows like South Park, Ridiculousness, and Tosh.O have eroticism but in a humorous manner. 

Eroticism can also be writing instead of pictures.  Poetry is one of the popular ways that humans express their sexual attraction to another person.  Writings, in my opinion, can impact a reader more than film.  A writing can be read anytime and any part can be looked over constantly with ease.  As for a movie, it may take longer to find the part that aroused the viewer.  A writing can be held like a treasure also.